Finding Me

I haven't written in the long time. It's not cause there hasn't been stuff to blog about....I'm just lazy. I could have written and complained about a heap blogs, about a heap of stuff. Such as :









- Work

- McBiblestudy

- My Crazy, Stupid, Friends

- Kylie coming home (and that is oooold news!)

- Wishes

- My Teeth

- ISCF (I really can't believe i didn't blog about that! Best. Thing. Ever!)




- And a million other things! Which I will not list here, because who wants to taste a million stories, and not hear them.









So I've just entitled this blog, "Finding Me", because i think that's been a big thing for me lately.




I used to be really insecure about a lot of things, and it's not that I'm becoming a different person, just maybe more of myself than I was. It's awesome :) It makes life so rose coloured. And no, I don't think I'm on some Happy- Hormonal - High. Seriously. Im actually kind of sick at the moment, and my voice, isn't working, and this doesn't make me happy. Normally, I sing ALL the time, now when I open up my mouth this croaky, wierd sound comes out. YUCK! So I'm pretty quiet. Which feels so wierdddd! That should be proof that I'm not on a happy high :)




SoI've been reading this lady's blog, her name is Kelle Hapton, and if you havent read her blog, you can find it here http://www.kellehampton.com/, she's SO super-duper inspirational.




I just want to say that, Emily Haase is going to start enjoying the small things. Like photos, collages on my wall, new paintings on old canvases :D, singing, piano, being an art-fart (which I'm kind of ok with :P), being with my friends, all the hair pieces that i can't help but wear lately :D, my family (they're the best!), and God. (Last but defo not least!)




And I think maybe, just maybe.....I'm finding God, not finding Emily, and that's why I'm more me than I ever was :)














Some pics I love, and that make me happy :)































~Em~

Chips, Chalk, and Deep Talks

Aaaah! What a great week I'm having. Having two of my favourite friends staying with me is pretty much my piece of cake. They were both staying at the same time, which is, like, the cherry on top of the cake. And they stayed almost a whole week, and we had a week off school! That's like the.....well, something else yum to put on my cake. Maybe chocolate iceing, or whipped cream, or icing sugar :D.

Thursday was the funnest day! (is that a word? Don't think so.) Chillaxing until late morning, chatting away. Then Hannah got the incredible idea. The idea that just takes the cake!

Chips, and Scallops for lunch! Pretty good, aye?

So walked the 2 and a half kms to get to chip shop. And man, was it worth it!!! 7 bucks worth of chip, 8 scallops, and 2 large bottles of splashe later, we all had huge food babies!!!! And we sat in between car parks, so close that when the cars drove passed we could have touched them. People walked past and looked at us enviously. I was almost tempted to call out, "Hey, do you wanna share?" but i didn't. They probably would have glanced at me, and hurried away, pretending not to hear. Haha! I was tempted to do it, just for the awkwardness it would cause. But i controlled myself. But it was pretty funny inside my head.

The walk home was refreshing, especially after all the oil! Then chalk drawing for hours on the road, outline people's shadows, Drawing flowers and fish, and baby dinasours. It was really fun! Then playing Fly. Which is the worst game IN THE WORLD. Mostly cause I lose. But Hannah is freakishly good at it.

Then being exhausted, but still talking until passed midnight! It was so fun!

We've been pretending it's summer even though, y'know, it's so flipping cold that all we want to do is stay in bed with the electric blanket turned up full-bull. So, on Wednesday, in honour of our pretend summer week, we went swimming, in our backyard pool. It took a lot of working up to: Examining our old summer tan lines, trying to find swimmers, jumping on the trampoline, to "warm up", dreading that which we knew was going to come. Ha! lucky one of us has some sense. Angela is always the sensible one, so she documented the whole thing, my camera has had such a workout these holidays!

Finally the moment came. We held hands, the less-assured Jordan dipped her toes in, then refused to tell us if it was warm or not. (probably knew that I would run the opposite direction!)
Then we took a deep breath, and jumped. And froze. It was so cold. Flailing arms and legs went everywhere, and screaming girls swum for there life. Brrrrr, i get shivers thinking about it!

But it was SO woth it. even just for the photos we got!

Ya gotta love the holidays :D

Emily

Horses

Horses. I've figured out that i actually don't mind being with them! I actually LIKE them! I've been doing horsemanship lessons. Ok....so I've had three. but all them same. I like them lots!!!!! It helps that it's my friend Cherry's mama that's doing it with me, and that their horses are all as friendly as.....I don't know......something very friendly!
Last Friday was so cool, I had this horse cantering around me, and I think that, maybe, she was having as much fun as me! Of course it's probably not as fun for her when I do something wrong or click at her (something i find very difficult, considering my braced mouth lately) to many times and then she walks so fast i can't keep up :S.
And it doesn't even matter that I get home and my fingernails are all black, and I smell like a horse, and my jeans are a lil' hairy. I actually like the horse smell! Talk about amazing. We are talking about someone who used to feel squeamish just watching someone kiss a horse. I have to confess that there has maybe been some horse kissin' on my part :D! But don't worry I'm not planning on chewing tobacco, or wearing a cowboy hat, or spurs. And I'll try not to pull my lassoo out to often. :P

I'm pretty lucky I reckon.

This is Cherry, and me, one of my favourites at the moment.

Emily

Hot Chocolate Weather

This is todays photo.

I love hot chocolate weather. Autumn, it's definitely the time for Hot Chocolates, Electric Blankets, Breathing Out Hard so I can see my breath in the air, and getting bashed on the head with leaves. (Ha-ha Ruby Ha-ha)


Em x

My kind of Party!

I'm sitting here, and it's early in the morning, just 7:30. I am having a quietish moment. Just editing photos. I've had a big w/e :). But I've enjoyed every second of it. Every cent i spent, every laugh i honked out, every photo i took, and word I've said, I enjoyed it all :-). And that was just Saturday!
My best girlfriend from Bourke, Georgiegirl, came to visit this w/e. I love her to pieces and we had a whole heap of fun, shopping all afternoon Saturday, searching through the 3 for 15 racks at Jay-Jays, or looking for the right size photo frame for a certain birthday coming up.
Even getting kicked out of Sam's Warehouse. (Heh heh)

Then Friday night was fantastic. I had my 15th birthday party. And Yes I did refrain from playing Fifteen by Taylor Swift. We all hung around and drank hot chocolate, and warmed up after a chilllllly night watching an outside movie at Youth. (If you've never seen August Rush, I suggest you do, it was a great! movie)

Then everyone gave me presents, and I love them all! The hair clip featuring in todays photo, was a present from my friend Maighan.




We ate Yummy Violet Crumble Dessert, and junk food. Then we went outside and sat around a beautifully constructed fire Outside!, and we ate marshmallows. It was funny, poking people's noses and exclaiming how cold they were.



Everyone was in bed by 1 and ready to sleep, well the boys were, the girls were of course happy to chat into the early hours. Of course the boys did seem a little more lively the next morning.



A pancake breakfast to top things off, and I'd that I had a pretty darn good time :D



Of course getting hit over the head by pillows to many times can make you a bit crazy, which is how I explain some randomness in this post. :-)



Now I'm sitting here in my flannel Pjs, my fingers are freezing off, and I am happy.



The new outfit I bought yesterday may also have something to do with it.



Em x



P.S.

Thanks to my friendly Ruby, who wrote me a two paged letter to go with her very original present, and a poem in this letter which I will not include in this post because it is my room where there are sleeping people :). But I loved it. It almost cried with happiness when i read it.



P.P.S

Also this is a little shoutout to my best coastal friend Ashleigh, who couldn't come to my party because she was 12 hours, or 1,000 kms away, whichever you prefer. I love you and you make me smile whenever i talk to you.

something about everything

I had a birthday the other day. I got some awesome things :D Everyone was pretty nice to! It was a good day!
I got some mittens (purple),(thanks kylie!)
I got some great earrings, and a tripod (you go m+d)
And a pair of fantastic over the ear headphones (Tom, Jen, and Joz, You're the best!)
And Finally ~Dah-Daaaaaaaaaah!~ A picnik Premium!!!!! (from the loverly Kitkat)

I am making great use of all of them, i can assure you!

I went to the Zoo yesterday with a friend and her wee baby! It was great fun. At my request i took a million photos of bubsie and they turned out pretty good, its exciting! If I end up really being a photographer, it will be great to see how my style changes along the way.
It's sort of a dream, but im not really sure if thats what i want to do. I guess things like that are always a jump.
I read a book about two weeks ago, and it was called Do Hard Things. It was a real chalenge to rise above average and do hard things, even the small hard things which i'm terrible at!
So if you can get your hands on that book, i suggest you read it.

Love,
Em

A whole week has flown by, just like that. It's amazing how fast things go when you forget to watch. I forget to watch all the time. But everything is so exciting to look at that you can't sit and meditate on life ALL the time. I think you'd miss some great bits if you did, and some bits if you didn't.

So this week I did school, there was some very interesting bits learning about Mark Antony, and Augustus Ceasar, and Cleopatra. Then there was math, which we are hoping i understood.

Last night I went to Bible Study, and that was really good. I really like going :)
I have Youth tonight and it's dress up as something starting with 'S', Mines a Secret though :-).

I recorded a song this week, it made me so excited. It went surprisingly well, and It just needs some level adjusting and i need to get some better drums i think.

Oh well time to go and help with dinner. I haven't told much about my week, but it's been busy in a quiet sort of way.

Em